Just Hours to Go!

I know that I have not posted a real post in a couple weeks now and that is mostly because of the fact that between finals and the holidays it was extremely busy on my end of things and I was just trying to keep my head above water right then. I have returned and I hope to start posting more regularily again, as things have calmed down and I am starting to have quite a few developments in the AB part of my life. So for everyone that is been reading my blog and checking it in my absence, thank you so much for your support!

Big Night Tonight:

Well its currently just after 6:30 on the December 26th, 2012 and I am only a few hours away from what I think is likely going to be a life changing evening for me. As I am writing this my daddy is on a flight to come visit me and some other brothers that live in my area. I am finally taking the leap tonight and its really happening this time, I am going to have my first experience with being really babied and even more importanly being diapered with Daddy and my brother Keebs. I would be lying if I said that I didn't have a good sprawl of emotions running through my mind right now. If I had to break down what I am feeling at this exact moment it would be:

15% Anxiousness

35% Nervousness

50% Excitement

Its crazy to think that after discovering my interest in diapers around eight years ago that I going to have only my 2nd diaper experience with another person tonight. That has been eight solid years of worrying, fearing, and rejecting my love for diapers and being an AB that is ingrained in me. Beyond being excited to hangout with Daddy and my brother, I am also super excited to finally be able to make a decision about my AB after this experience, having the proper perspective to really decide what I want. 

Over the eight years like I mentioned before it has been a rollercoast of thoughts and ideas about my own inclinations to wear diapers and be an AB. I think its been pretty clear through my past posts that I have had plenty of experiences wearing diapers but it has always been by myself. Its awesome to know that after tonight I will be able to finally say that I have been babied before and hung out with other people while diapered. For most people these are little accomplishments, but for me this is really one of the biggest accomplishments that I have had with my AB side in a long long time.

Also for my eager readers (If there are any) keep checking the blog over the next few days because I am hoping to have lots of pictures and updates about tonight on the blog over the next few days!

Update on Winter Break Plans:

Well with only ten short days until I leave school for winter break and preparations being made pretty soon for my plans for break, I figure that I owned everyone an update on whats going on with it!

Diaper Reviews:

Like I mentioned in a previous post, I will be taking some time over break to purchase a few sample packs of diapers and giving them a personal review. This is still on as planned, and I am getting ready to order the sample pack next week. Luckily with it being the holiday season and it not being so uncommon for me to receive sensitive packages to my home that my parents can't look through, I will be placing the order next week and having them shipped to my home.

The final decision on what I am going to get is:

AB Universe Ultra Sample Pack

As I mentioned previously this is a bargain and comes with a selection of 10 different types of diapers and 2 different types of diaper boosters that I will be giving a shot. With this package being only $16.95 before shipping & handling it is easily the best diaper sample pack that I could find on the market.

I had mentioned previously that I was going to try and get sample packs also from Bambinos and Star Diapers, however after really looking into the expense I realized that it was not cost efficient to purchase their sample packs. However, I think that 12 diapers is plenty of a start for the reviews.

Plans:

I have a couple different things planned for break but the most important being that I am going to be trying to hangout with several of my diaper brothers while I am home and also possibly with my daddy if he has time. I am really excited to be able to hangout with all my diaper family members and really be able to finally sit down in a nice thick diaper without constantly being looking over my shoulder, hoping that my parents or siblings are not going to catch me in the act. Not to mention this will be my 2nd time that I have ever hung out with another person while diapered, and this time I might not be the only one diapered!

My other big plan is to try and expand my comfort zone just a little bit by starting to wear diapers under my clothes while I am out and about. Now I am going to take this one step at a time but I am going to buy a pack of Goodnites and wear them while I am out getting things done over break. The reason that I am wearing the Goodnites are because they are a thin diaper that really won't show through my clothes. Depending on how bold that I am feeling, I may also try to even wet them while I am on the move and just start to really expand my horizons and comfort level. I know to many this people this sounds like a absolute joke, but for me this really is a big step & something that I have never felt comfortable doing.

A Quick Post Before Bed:

Its almost five am right now and I just had something on my mind that I needed to write down before forgot or it wasn't as fresh in my mind. Its been a strange weekend and really last few months for me, ive really come into my own with my diaper side or at least gotten better. This can easily be accounted to the fantastic family that I have come into, and all the really supportive people that are apart of it. No need for me to drop specific names but they know who they are. Its really been expanding for me and I am excited for all the great opportunities and learning experiences that I have coming in the future because of these great people.

Anyways this is a really short post but seeing as it is so late and I am exhausted...I figure its best to stop before I come off as a bumbling idiot.

Endlessly Excited:

This entire past week was honestly one of the most difficult that I have had all year so far. The craziest of finals has truly set in and the amount of sleep I got this week is not something that I am particularly happy/proud about. Even with all of those things being put onto my plate I am still each day getting to be more and more excited for break to finally be here. Now I am excited for your obvious college student reasons like, sleeping in my own bed, eating at any hours of the night, and seeing my family but there is more to my excitement then that. I talked earlier on my blog about how I am going to take advantage of this extended break and that I am going to get some sample packs of diapers & give them each a shot/review.

To add to that I have been relentlessly talking to my brothers, and am excited by the fact that I am likely going to finally be able to spend time with some of them finally. Ive been talking to many of my brothers for months now and others I have just met but regardless all around I am excited to finally make the off-line connection with these awesome guys. I have been in and out of the ABDL community for the last eight years and something that I have learned in those years is that I have had a much easier time accepting my ABDL side once I have that personal connection. Its never really occurred to me before now except with one other individual.

One of the most exciting things for me about break is the fact that I will finally be offered the opportunity to step out of my comfort zone and try to really give some new things a shot. By that I mean really get out there and experience what it is really like to actually enjoy my diaper side and not constantly be looking over my shoulder about it. I am really hoping that after this break and getting to finally experience a good situation of diapers that I will leave feeling more confident about my AB side.

Regardless the Countdown begins....15 days.

Family

*Disclaimer - I am part of TrueDaddyBrian's family and for those of you that object or for some reason don't agree with me being Brian's boy or simply have a reason not to like Daddy Brian know that this post is about the family and so you may want to skip it.*

A Family Unit and Their Impact:

So quite some time ago I was inducted into Truedaddybrian's family of diaper boys and from that moment forward things started to change for me. Daddy immediately started to discuss my diaper feelings with me and helping me understand that there is nothing wrong with liking to wear diapers and be treated like a baby. I started to slowly come to a conclusion and remove the doubt I had about wearing and using diapers. Now in the past I have had many friends in the diaper community that have helped me fight these feelings of guilt and almost depression about my diaper side but no one has really gotten through to my quite like Daddy has.  I have come to realize that Daddy has a way of speaking to me that few others have ever been able to and because of that my life has changed with every conversation that we have had.

Daddy is not the only part of the family that has had a spectacular impact on my life, but he is the reason that I have met all the other people that have as well. After meeting daddy and speaking to him for some time he started to slowly introduce me to members of his family and two of them have had a monumental impact on me in particular. The two people that I am talking about are Ethan and Keebs. These are two guys who really deep down get me. Both of them have been there for me to talk to when I have had doubts about my diaper side and have helped me reel myself back in before I ended up starting another Binge and Purge cycle. These are two people have put up with a unbelievable amount of bullshit from me when it comes to leaving and coming back several times. Trying to get rid of my feelings for diapers, and then coming crawling back hoping that I didn't burn every single bridge that I had in the community.

To really sum it up, these are some people that are very special to me. They are the three people that have helped me hold it all together and get further in accepting myself then I have ever been before in my life.